Sunday, June 27, 2010

Rihanna - Cold Case Love

♥ ~I've been sentenced, Thus I'll do my time! 

Doing Without, Giving or Taking Too Much


When you've had so much, you'll miss the slightest withdrawal if you put too much attention in the actual value or meaning of your treasure. Treasure is valued as anything that brings a welcomed relevance, joy, excitement, enlightenment, wide measure or comfort level into your presence and existence. So my point is, everyone has treasure in all they possess, it's never just confined to monetary or material acquirement. Simply anything that you hold favor to.

Being overly attentive to the object or occurence, is what makes us feel sad, or slighted when it's taken away. We can and will appreciate an abundance or overwhelming gravitation toward the "artifacts" and such, but paying a tad less attention to them, makes them or the experience develop a sort of newness when it's fell in love with all over again. Like, walk away from something, spend some time apart from it or their view. The next encounter will have that same breathtaking effect. Yes, I know... sticking around never parting company with the "gem" is still breathtaking and we like it for all its worth in it's presence or absence. However(for me anyway) I do bore easily and something once cherished, quickly loses topicality; therefore, I need to frequent an interest but not overly dwell in it; or I'll get mixed or caught up!

I'm learning to step back, but more often than not, I didn't step back soon enough and sustained paper cuts to the heart when the object, scene or situation changed or becomes no more.

I am a big giver, but admit to being a bigger taker. Hold on hold on... not a sole material or physical take per se, but an over taker of time, affection, space and emotion as well and the slightest withdrawal of such, is noticed immediately and is owed to my pulling for TOO much. Even if I didn't pull for it and it sort of just came about to my liking, It played an interest and existence to me, that I became accustomed and fastened to. The separation bleeds.

So, do give, take, admire, and appreciate; but be very solicitous to not becoming irreversibly engaged to your interests!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Inconsistently Us

I know I can be an arduous order of the day, but you're the runner up.
I really don't know you anymore.
Yet again I do.
You're expected to do exactly as you do. Sure I could blame myself for your actions,
but veritably it's you and your not owning our likeness with subtle differences.
Our contradictions Our sparseness Our selves.

Try Me

I agree and am just sayin...

Everybody needs somebody who'll be there
Someone to wipe the tears and make you smile
So if you need someone that will not judge you when you fall
No matter what you've done my love will answer when you call

So after your hearts been torn in two
And you just dont know what to do
After the rain has come and gone
And the sun still wont shine
After your friends have walked away
And you've run out of things to say
After you've tried everything else


Try me


Life can make you cry
And hurt you deep inside
I promise you I know the pain you feel
So if you let me love you I can take those clouds away
I'll fill your world with joy
You know your wrong I will erase

So after your hearts been torn in two
And you just dont know what to do
After the rain has come and gone
And the sun still wont shine
After your friends have walked away
And you've run out of things to say
After you've tried everything else

Try me


Even tho you hurt me and sometimes forget my name
My love is unconditional
That means that it wont ever ever change


So after your hearts been torn in two
And you just dont know what to do
After the rain has come and gone
And the sun still wont shine
After your friends have walked away
And you've run out of things to say
After you've tried everything else


Try me


Reach out your hand and I'll be there
You can call me
When ever and Where ever
You Can Try Me
Tamar Braxton

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Pro Pain

Multitalented1/Lecheeky

Hey it's wii-me again. Just placing stats
Made Tennis pro status today and it wasn't easy.
My rotator cuff is screaming for me to stop.
I'm a couple more pounds down but better recover
before I hurt my dayum self.
*arms up* woo hoo *arms down* So um ouch okay bye.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Digressing

When is it time to fall back and take it all in?
You put your best foot forward. You've met the challenges and whether or not you succeeded in satisfying them, if it doesn't complete you or the situation, let it go and begin again. For some of you/us, staying in your lane and watching the game as opposed to starring in it can be a challenge in itself; however, when you do, you will have a better view of what's required to achieve the sought after results instead of assuming your way is best. It's ok to be on the sidelines if it's not your show time. Perhaps a more rewarding venue is waiting.
Don't search for it though, if it's yours it'll find you.
She Rests

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

**Why ?????

I'm feeling the shit outta Judge Mathis; however,
How is it that one can be thrown out of court and held in contempt for having physically expressive emotions? Rolling eyes or shaking of the head etc? A Judge can say in the form of a raised voice, exactly what he/she wants and a person being naturally defensive in nature is supposed to endure that and remain perfectly erect in stance while donning a smile. Yea right. I hope I'm never in court and a button is pushed because I'd be in immediate contempt. Just who/what in the fuck gives them the right to "swing" on me and I can't retaliate? I have fear of God and my Dad to a certain degree, because now that I'm an adult, there's only so much respect I can give him if none is being reciprocated. But no one else moves me like that in the slightest. Oh yea I am aware of a due respect to one's stature of seniority, but police officers and judges really kinda don't fit in to my being myself and expressing such by any means during communication, when anger is provoked by their initiation of ill emotion.

OR Ohhh... I get it, there is a clause in their title makeup that warrants them the right to direct order in any means at their leisure whether it's due or not. It can even be they got up on the wrong side of the desk and feel like fucking wit someone. Oh... alright. I just don't get it. Maybe I should get a gavel permit and be getting paid for my actions too; hell, I know some law with my attitude too.

*Pow* get the fuck outta here!! Ha... Lemme go google this shit.
[smh-rolling my eyes and introducing my middle one]

BTW

I made pro status in bowling yesterday and have lost 2 more pounds.
Thank you, thank you very much!
Huh? Yeah, of course on Wii. I'm good n all but umm yea no, it was via Wii.  

Monday, June 7, 2010

I know I'm not in charge


Today I had prearranged errands to run. I got dressed and left the house feeling fine with the slight exception of not knowing my exact route. It's been a while since I'd traveled that area so having my every move down to a science is much needed to keep road rage and panic at bay. I decided on a short cut because hey, I know the streets and checked the news for road closures; nothing could go wrong.
So I thought
I kept missing my turn or kept turning when I should've kept straight. I went in the wrong direction approximately 3 more times before I called to vent to my traveling companion whom I was headed to pick up. I tried again and missed my turn, inadvertently ended up on the Interstate but exited when familiarity came into play. Still 100% uncertain of my direction until I saw another familiar street, called to confirm I was on the right track and on my way. Well the road immediately started looking unfamiliar then very familiar as it was taking me back in the direction of my own house. I called back and said this is a sign that I can't do it so I'm going home before I end up in A whole nuther state. I was extremely irate at my failed attempt, the traffic got worse as I got closer to home. I'm now spilling profanity every where, rolling my eyes at the light posts and anyone that dared to look in my direction. It's a wrap.

God is so remarkable in knowing I was not totally up to being on the street today. I thank him for taking me back home safely. He'd taken the wheel from the first wrong turn. I love that he knows me better than I know myself. I know there were one set of foot prints on my journey today and I know they weren't mine.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Wii R The World

This just in, as of this morning 6-6-10 I have obtained a pro status in boxing and have lost 3 lbs. There could easily, possibly with a definite probability be that I've lost more in terms of inches, being the scale lacks accuracy due to acquired muscle mass. Please stand by for further success updates on this story. I will now return you to YOUR regularly scheduled programming.
Bally's back to you...*smh*

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Man Down Update

Owwwwwwwww!


I knew to expect some pain as I've experienced "new move" muscle awakenings before; but, damnnn. I passed two hours straight combating the wii last night. Hell I almost forgot it was just me and the game. There was name calling, shouting, walking off in shame, congratulatory dances and um yeah, you get the picture. I was all in but now I'm out. I won't be defeated tho. I refuse to let a buncha shoulder joint, foot, core and upper arm excruciating pain keep me from my techno-ponent.
I'm goin in again in 5 4 3 ...

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Welcoming Wii

I was told a few years ago by(lets exclude names1) that I would get a wii for my bday, then again(len2)for mothers day, well ok (len3)maybe Christmas. Nope Notta Never came.
[smh - shruggin shoulders AND rollin eyes]


I've gained 25lbs over the winter and it's less than a pretty site. I didn't do much of anything but consumed a bit of everything. That and being sedentary is the exact street you go down to arrive at obesity.
Shame on me...


Anywho, I saw it(the wii) on sale at two department stores yesterday and was determined to acquire it as a workout partner. My tennis partner is no more, my walking partner, was sadly yet necessarily eluded. Gym membership lapsed and I refuse to re-join. Now I have everything I need here at home to get and remain on track.


A combination of yesterday and today; playing tennis, boxing and bowling has netted me over three hours of play/game/workout time thus far. I got more in me. Lotsa major sweating and achieved a near pro level already.


Woo hoo.... fight/deuce/strike!

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