Sunday, February 27, 2011

Antwone Fisher

I love this movie. My entire head let alone my face and eyes are always tear drenched throughout my consumings of it. It entails such relevancy and divergence.

The combination of the two life experiences, his against my own are equally overwhelming yet rewarding.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Moving Past Myself

I have a very special friend that has told me to get out of my own way, and when I'm having an off day, don't listen to myself. Most times when we are consumed with negativity, it's due to our own insecurities and doubts. In all actuality we truly are our own worst enemies. Well I get it and have passed it on to others that are also perceived as their biggest obstacles. I'm surpassing all that I previously set for myself, as I know there's more to/for me than this or shall I say that. Yesterdays are lost so I'm gettin my today's and tomorrows in check.
**pushing myself away so I can get thru**

Monday, February 14, 2011

ICU Unit #324

Comprehensive Medical Chart:
Effective Monday, February 14, 2011 9:59:59 AM
Female patient admitted on Thursday, February 10, 2011 9:59:59 AM

Patient complained early that morning of discomforts in her cardiac region; possibly brought on by the abrupt decision to sever connections to a major heart valve #415. The bleeding was stopped, however the pain was too much to bear and the patient collapsed. After reading from notes and sporadic etchings found in the residence, it is concluded that this is a clear case of heart break.

When asked if this was a fact, the patient wiggled her left finger to indicate a yes. A sign she's aware, not in a comatose state - yet in and out of consciousness. When asked if she regretted the decision to separate, she then wiggled a right toe to indicate a second yes. When asked if she wanted us to preserve the valve in hopes of repair for rekindling, there was a blink to suggest... yes. A specialist then enters to determine the chances of full and complete recovery by asking one more question. Can you ever love again?

Time progression of 2 minutes with a lapse in animated response by gesture of any limb, represents an uncertainty or wide probability of a No. She Rests

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Habitual Resolutionists

I'd been sentenced indefinitely but my release date is at hand.
The repetition of self promises written, erased and re-canted are
as disabling as the habit and or lifestyle we want to denounce.
It's like we validate the temporary slippage because we know as
the year turns, likewise does our habit of starting over. We
again eat, drink, smoke, spend, indulging in an extreme use of profanity or whatever we know is a hindrance.
Saying it all to say I'm just gonna live and remain conscious of my behaviors and correct those that limit my growth concluding only with complete satisfaction, however long it takes.