Friday, January 27, 2012

Who IS That?


Am I the only one left that can honestly admit who I am? I've had people shy away from my admitting to be moody. We all have our days and times when we are not the same as yesterday or a few weeks back.
The advantage of knowing gives an approacher the heads up to proceed with caution. It's all about the approach and reception. You'll never know how I'm feeling if you've spent the majority of time contemplating asking. Or at least being considerate and respectful of the fact that, today may not be a good day. However, your reward is that it just may be; or, that your greeting has made for a better one.
Wouldn't you rather know that the person you're dealing with has some flaws? We all have them. But wouldn't it also let the person know that you have a sincere interest IN them and not confining your interaction TO them being in the best of moods always?

Don't run away and say, uh oh... this is not what I signed up for. Yea it's cool to choose not to be subjected to a bad or altered mood, but show some concern if it means anything at all to you. Challenge me to a better day or temperament.

I can go as easily from numb to nice in the same 0.3 seconds that I can go from brilliant to bitch!

A provoked mood swing is far worse than a neurological one. If for some reason my mood shifts from tame to tart during/after an encounter with you, then by all means, Of Course..... Hurry up and run! Because YOU have lit that match, however it would not be feasible to stick around until it burns out.

I have my days where you'd be better off walking thru a Lions Den in Pork Chop Pants, than to have messed with me. And then there's days where, you'd pray to a "Higher Power" to not have our shared time end. I can be your most favored life experience. It's totally up to you.

Oh and today is a good day. I just felt like pointing this out.
Now...which one of me, would you like to meet?

Monday, January 16, 2012

Like Wind To A Dandelion


Beautiful things come and go. Most of the time you can pinpoint the arrival and departure of seasonal things. Every now and then an unexpected awe striking substance will appear, taking you by surprise. The entire time it was in your presence, you were amazed, delighted, overwhelmed yet welcoming.

You underestimate how temporary such a gem could be. You never knew you'd miss it. You never thought it's limited duration would be so short lived because it bears a lifetime of once believed to be extinct occurrences. An awakening of love, kindness, acceptance, patience and enlightenment.

If something can come in for a brief time and demonstrate an infinity of esteem, why aren't we wise enough to grasp it and make it a stationary piece of our lives. It's simply because we're afraid. We're afraid to touch it, uncertain of it's frailty thus we ignore it so not to disturb it's beauty with our insecurities.

The presence of our beautiful things like a dandelion, will wither and blow away when care, concern, acknowledgment and perseverance aren't expressed. Don't let your beautiful thing blow away, nurture your new finding and hopefully, just maybe you'll get it to stay.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

"Ouch"! no really... Ouch


I had no idea that I was allergic to fresh pineapple.
Last year I bought a fresh pineapple so I could add it to General Tso's Chicken that I'd prepared to over night ship to a dear friend of mine. After I cut and cored it, I began to just eat slice after slice and by the third one, my tongue was on fire. It felt as if I turned my back and someone sprayed it with mace. It literally stung and took my taste buds away, so I had to just eyeball the rest of the ingredients because I couldn't taste if whether or not I applied the right amount of seasonings. I also prepared a Lasagna and it too was iffy on the seasonings. They both turned out to be my worst fixings. He said he enjoyed it but...[shrug]I didn't throw it away, I just ate it sparingly the next couple of days and never checked with a doc or thought anything serious was connected. 

Okay so yesterday was the first time I bought and ate one since last year and baaaaaaaaBy, same thing. First couple of slices were cool and then I got to the third that I'd cut up in a salad and wtf??? I eat canned pineapple all the time and don't get this adverse reaction. My greedy ass trys to eat more because it's delicious. I have Romaine lettuce, cherry tomatoes, mesquite chicken breast and the pineapple. You would think it was a bowl of cactus or glass shards and needles. My tongue is burning and I seriously don't want to toss it but now the entire salad is on fire. DAMN!!!

So I googled allergy symptoms and there it is... everything that's going on in my mouth and shortly thereafter, my throat and I'm scared of going into an anaphylactic shock or something so I put my kid and a close friend on call back duty to check on me later and come to think of it, I haven't heard from neither of them bitches so ummm, yea... shows how serious they took it. I kept a phone very close to me in case I needed to call for emergency transport and slept with a phone on the bed.

Come to find out, the allergy is ode to the bromelain, which is a natural enzyme found in pineapple that gets killed off during processing which is why I'm not bothered by the canned version. Other than the taste, my main reason for eating it was for the so called bromelain dietary benefits.
Daaaannng... I so wanna eat some more of it. Shooooot. Oh well, I froze it and will perhaps let someone else have it since I can't bring my greedy ass to just throw it out. Ugh, I hate that.
 

Monday, January 9, 2012

The Arduousness Of A Girl


As she becomes a woman

When she arrives even her cry is befuddled
Selecting the proper attire with style and color to a science
Deciding to be or not a wheel in the race for peer fame
Training her hair to a distinguishing degree
Climbing the ladder because it's there and must be surpassed
Over coming obstacles that don't have to be obstacles
Picking that someone that may not coincide
Smiling before an inevitable tear preludes
Writing to express to bypass an ill tongue
Holding back her fullness to not be perceived as boastful
Demonstrating worth integrity and accountability to herself
Questioning it all in great certainty and contradiction
She rests, rems and repeats....

Friday, January 6, 2012

**Damn Bus...


I have always had a crush on Busta Rhymes. Well not always... I think my first real celeb crush was Rick James and my wanting to "give it to em baby". Then Busta. Next was Laurence Fishburne, then he did some extra fancy shit or something that made me re-evaluate my lust tank. Then Terrence Howard show'd up in Best Man with his line of, "Tell me you like it" as he placed the garter on the chickamajigga's leg. I hated him in Dead Presidents mane, but yeah... that "like it" line redeemed him. Then Mr. Busta Rhymes again. Oh and then(and now- while I'm play'n) Eamonn Walker, and back to Bus. Ole sexyfinefuckaliciousass so n so. Sigh...

The only thing that scares me about him is that, he may be a bit more sexually experienced than me(if I were to ever have the pleasure) and I wouldn't be able to keep up. Now if he just wanna "do it" not quite fuck - but just "do it" I think I can take E'm. Yep - I earned this nick name "Angel Dust" at a very young age for my naturally addictive nature. I've been abstinent for a few years for sanity's sake, but I know I can still break him up. Anyway, I tend to love and listen to rap regularly. Especially when I'm in traffic. It helps me deal with the inadequacies of the other drivers with less road rage and mellows my cuss o meter per Se.
I mixed my CD's to form a perfect ride out formula  and titled it "Driving Beats". It starts with Lil Boosie, "Swerve On Um" possibly not the exact title but so what, this here my juke joint!! Then I believe it's Busta's "We Want In" both self explanatory to the very early actions of driving and merging and such. But the final fuck the rest for the rest of the trip cuz dis niqqa got lyrics arriving and departing in total beast mode is um(hol on - I done made me a grilled cheese w/pepperoni and it's gettin cold. I just made this shit up so hol on)...........    ............    ............
See what "Trevor" does to me? I haven't cussed this much since uhhhh, hell the car in between tracks, lol. Naw - we all grown. But I rolled more than 20 miles replaying this verse right here:{I may be off a word or two, but so-shut the fuck up & see the highlighted rules 10 lines up}

From the track "I'm a Go n Get" from Back On My BS ...
Mr Rhymes: "he had a couple dudes to support e'm, actin all extra like he had that thing on e'm and after we finished beating on e'm, and now he knew we ain't playin, that's when he walked away say'n"

Mike Epps nem or ?: "I'ma go n get my 25 - overall 27 - be back in 13 minutes wit even 20 - be back wit 27 nigga's wit them 38's"   do do do do dooo

Okay... as u were. I just had to get all that out. Got me runnin round here singin n re singin this shit. And writing it down like somebody gone call for a stand in or a gangsta grandma rap off or som'n.

Bye!

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