Friday, December 21, 2012

They Saw Me!!!


I know my limit. I started the day with the phone off the hook. Today I had to show my true self. It's embarrassing and tiring to step outside of your nice clean shell and go bare skin and knuckles on someone. People that don't really know me, think I am the sweetest person. Now, not so much.
I'm not apologizing for expressing a darker side of me. I'm simply reminding folks to proceed with caution when attempting to engage me beyond my limits.

A Good Choice(even if it's not your choice)


I am not, I repeat, NOT a dog person. I prefer tropical fish as a pet. Not just because fish are less maintenance and only requiring feedings with water changes and periodic tank cleanings. Dogs and Cats are indeed more of an extension to family. You got shots and walkings, poopings and feedings and time time time to extend to the well being of these pets. Being a first time mom at a very young age, I have had my share of full hands on care of/for anyone with the exception of myself. Anyway, These two movies ode to dogs are two of my most favorite emotion felt views in it's category. I try not to watch either of them when I'm feeling down because I know I'll cry and wonder if anyone EVER loved me as much as Hachi loved Richard Gere's character and the unconditional way in which Marley was loved by his family. Today I'm in a mood to be just left alone. I started watching Avatar; then it was The Book of Eli, Takers and now Hachi. I hope someone will always love me enough to keep showing up. Never finding a reason to give up. Hachi never did until he did.
 
I think I'll end this marathon of emotion and a hit of action with a blast of Bad Santa. Then I have a bone to pick with maintenance. The guy said he'd be back this morning, well I'm giving him until 2:05 this afternoon and I'm gonna have to sprinkle his azzz with a lil bit of "SALT".

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Collecting Keys


Some "things" show up and leave you completely oblivious to their true intentions. It's then up to you to pay attention to it's every move, every whim and decipher whether it is indeed for you. If this presence made you happy enough to love yourself more, it served a great purpose. If you were left saddened by an ordeal, take it simply as a lesson that everything that's good to you isn't good for you, which can further help you seek and recognize a better "thing". The experience in itself was just that, an experience. Even though some situations don't evolve as expected or hoped for, they occur as knowledge. You will never exceed a need for knowledge as long as your days continue. You must collect the keys of experience to unlock the doors of knowledge & understandings.
Hope this all makes sense or at least adds to your keyring.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Seeing This


I woke up this morning and after thanking God for allowing me to, I just couldn't bring myself to a "Happy Place". If you know me, you know I battle these moods often. A lot stems from my past and some from a current state. Today I won't be in touch nor will I allow you to be. I do that sometimes.
There are things that can turn my day around and seeing this pic again, nets a smile. Although I still won't interact today, the beauty and message I find in this photograph makes me happy.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

To Whom It May Concern,


After careful consideration and temperaments beyond my control, I have decided to refrain from being a full time spouse. No further information nor evaluation will be given.
I apologize for the inability to return any time and or gifts extended throughout this process.
¯\(ツ)/¯

Sincerely, Not Yours

P.S. This was not an easy task. Although I know you've heard this
before, it's not you... It is and always has been me.... wait.... If only you could... Maybe if we... Okay, Yea - No, it's over.



Saturday, December 8, 2012

**Dafuq? Am I Being Punk'd?


Believe it or not, I am my best self first thing in the morning. Not every morning; but when I'm out and about, I'm usually a good girl unless provoked. Today I made stop #1 @Walmart. Once done with my shopping and upon self checking out, I needed an associate to validate a couple of coupons. She approached and I cheerfully say, "Good Morning!" she does NOT acknowledge me, nor reciprocate the greeting, BUT snatches my coupons and proceeds to enter her info to gain access to the register..... I can't even call this a blank stare moment. I immediately said, "REALLY?" "Well fuck it, not every one has a good morning." Then she begins to make all the wrong assumptions about the coupons and after I verbally read this bitch on her inaccurateness she tries everything else to make herself appear to be more knowledgeable than moi. Wrong again bitch and further more, Me: "I'm trying to be considerate, yet my attitude stems from my greeting you which you ignored and then SNATCHED my coupons!!" Her: Nothing, she remained silent as I literally walked around her sizing her up and being as offended as I was, I'm trying not to physically crown this bitch. I decide to simmer down. She insists I have a nice day. I reciprocate and leave, because I'm too into my freedom to be on death row about a Walmart incident involving a sour bitch named Elaine.

Stores number 2, 3 and 4 went well. With the exception of a very slight over charge at store #3

Store #5: I went home first to take my perishable items from the earlier trips and decide to go to a nearby drug store to get me suntin to drank(lol). I got several other sale items and checked out. I looked at my receipt and became aware that the clerk didn't ask for my reward card which would greatly lesson the price of a few items I bought. I almost drove off but decided that at least one of them was sooo not worth full price, so I go back in with the items and confront the "mistake". She apologizes for not asking for the card, I apologize for making her re-ring the items and charge them at the promotional discount. I originally paid via credit card and she takes it upon herself, as she thought she was doing me a favor, and refunds me with cash. She re-rings the items and collects the lessened amount of cash due back. Okaaaaaaaay... I ask her about the pending charges to my card, she says, "I gave you cash so that should settle it." Me: "Nooo Bitchlet!! The card will STILL be billed because you didn't void or refund THAT transaction and I'm not paying twice for this stuff." She almost thought she was about to adopt an attitude until I gave her a look that she was not gonna be able to escape. She says, "Well let me go ask __________ how to do this because you most definitely will be billed again for the items, even though I gave you cash." Me: "Yep, and I used it to repay, still leaving an outstanding charge on my card". They put their heads together with a few little calm suggestions from me. Together we worked it out and I'm at home. No one was harmed in the making of either of the two aforementioned incidents. Bottom line, speak up and pay attention to what's going on with, around, and involving you and take appropriate action(s).            

Friday, December 7, 2012

Dating Etiquette VS Thirst


I met a guy about two weeks ago and he seemed very interested in me. I thought he was attractive, although a bit short for my preference. However I'm short also, so it's not a huge deal. He asked several blunt questions which I liked that he wasn't shy, but then he seemed overly excited and nervous which turned me off. Longer story short, he asked for my number and I declined but took his. If I'd given him my number the burden would be on him to call first. But if I'd given him mine and not liked him, it starts the process of getting rid of him without changing my number. Now I want to at least see what he's about and think I've waited too long or has it been long enough? While I definitely think two weeks is enough time, I want to believe that if it's meant to be, we'll meet again somewhere someday. I may text him one day when I'm feeling bold. He did say ANY TIME. I always say, if you wait long you wait wrong. Should I "Chance" it?

After saying all of that, I'm no longer curious. I won't call. I'm seriously not a caller anyway. Oh well, having a seat.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Chameleon


Just when you thought you knew me
There are so many layers to see
Who knows which one I'll be
Love me or set me free
It's My
Decree

It's ColdπŸ₯Ά

There are two types of men, in scenarios where 1 was previously preferred over another, for his seemingly wise ways. Quicker to draw a conc...